What was it, a few weeks ago and I was crying because I decided to sell my house? Don't get me wrong ...I am still sad and pretty sure I will fall apart when I tape up the last box and close the front door behind me forever.
You see, over the past few years I've suffered through many life-altering events.
Separating with my ex-husband, going through a divorce, becoming a single mom, dating, deciding to sell my house and dealing with depression.
During this time I've had to realign my ideals on how my life would be.
I needed to know... how does one drag themselves out of the bed they've
been crying in for days on end... get from point a to point b?
For me there were tears, therapy, good friends/ family, focusing on myself and the most difficult part- TIME. But then one day, I woke up and felt.. different. Better. Optimistic. Dare I say happy? I never thought I would say I am getting excited about what the future has in store for me, but I am. I spent a lot of time dwelling on the negative aspects of my life, when in reality, my life is pretty good.
You see, over the past few years I've suffered through many life-altering events.
Separating with my ex-husband, going through a divorce, becoming a single mom, dating, deciding to sell my house and dealing with depression.
During this time I've had to realign my ideals on how my life would be.
I needed to know... how does one drag themselves out of the bed they've
been crying in for days on end... get from point a to point b?
For me there were tears, therapy, good friends/ family, focusing on myself and the most difficult part- TIME. But then one day, I woke up and felt.. different. Better. Optimistic. Dare I say happy? I never thought I would say I am getting excited about what the future has in store for me, but I am. I spent a lot of time dwelling on the negative aspects of my life, when in reality, my life is pretty good.
I'm proud to say I made some positive observations about myself:
I have endured a lot and I am OKAY
I am a strong woman
I know when to ask for help and am aware of what I can or can't handle on my own
It's okay to be sad, it's okay to cry
I am beautiful
I am loved
I am a good mother, daughter, friend, sister, niece and girlfriend
I am funny
I have learned how to take care of myself, both physically and emotionally
I've accomplished a lot of things I never thought I could
Instead of taking blame and feeling guilty, I forgive myself
And I did the one thing I was really scared of, starting a blog.
And I love it!
I've been looking at new places to live and it's helped me see that this move is a GOOD thing. I will get out of debt and believe that as much as I love my house, starting over without the zillion memories I have here, this is what I need. For now.
Of course, with an impending move, I have a ton of
design ideas swirling around in my head!
Can't wait to post them.
Have a good weekend everyone!
I have endured a lot and I am OKAY
I am a strong woman
I know when to ask for help and am aware of what I can or can't handle on my own
It's okay to be sad, it's okay to cry
I am beautiful
I am loved
I am a good mother, daughter, friend, sister, niece and girlfriend
I am funny
I have learned how to take care of myself, both physically and emotionally
I've accomplished a lot of things I never thought I could
Instead of taking blame and feeling guilty, I forgive myself
And I did the one thing I was really scared of, starting a blog.
And I love it!
I've been looking at new places to live and it's helped me see that this move is a GOOD thing. I will get out of debt and believe that as much as I love my house, starting over without the zillion memories I have here, this is what I need. For now.
Of course, with an impending move, I have a ton of
design ideas swirling around in my head!
Can't wait to post them.
Have a good weekend everyone!
Crissi, You're right. You are beautiful, and you are loved. I had no idea you were going through all of this, and I'm so glad you are coming out of it confident. I'm glad you started this blog but I had no idea it was difficult for you. You are a natural! And I love reading it and being inspired by you! Have a great weekend and thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteThanks Lori, I really appreciate it. :-)
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