Friday, May 20, 2011

Funny How Life Happens

What was it, a few weeks ago and I was crying because I decided to sell my house?  Don't get me wrong ...I am still sad and pretty sure I will fall apart when I tape up the last box and close the front door behind me forever. 
You see, over the past few years I've suffered through many life-altering events. 
Separating with my ex-husband, going through a divorce, becoming a single mom, dating, deciding to sell my house and dealing with depression. 
During this time I've had to realign my ideals on how my life would be.
 I needed to know... how does one drag themselves out of the bed they've
been crying in for days on end... get from point a to point b?

For me there were tears, therapy, good friends/ family, focusing on myself and the most difficult part- TIME.  But then one day, I woke up and felt.. different.  Better.  Optimistic.  Dare I say happy?  I never thought I would say I am getting excited about what the future has in store for me, but I am.  I spent a lot of time dwelling on the negative aspects of my life, when in reality, my life is pretty good.
I'm proud to say I made some positive observations about myself:

I have endured a lot and I am OKAY
I am a strong woman
I know when to ask for help and am aware of what I can or can't handle on my own
It's okay to be sad, it's okay to cry
I am beautiful
I am loved
I am a good mother, daughter, friend, sister, niece and girlfriend
I am funny
I have learned how to take care of myself, both physically and emotionally
I've accomplished a lot of things I never thought I could
Instead of taking blame and feeling guilty, I forgive myself
And I did the one thing I was really scared of, starting a blog. 
And I love it!

I've been looking at new places to live and it's helped me see that this move is a GOOD thing.  I will get out of debt and believe that as much as I love my house, starting over without the zillion memories I have here, this is what I need.  For now.

Of course, with an impending move, I have a ton of
design ideas swirling around in my head! 
Can't wait to post them.

Have a good weekend everyone!


  1. Crissi, You're right. You are beautiful, and you are loved. I had no idea you were going through all of this, and I'm so glad you are coming out of it confident. I'm glad you started this blog but I had no idea it was difficult for you. You are a natural! And I love reading it and being inspired by you! Have a great weekend and thanks for sharing.

  2. Thanks Lori, I really appreciate it. :-)